Well At Least It's Forwards

It's been a relatively unproductive few days. With working nights it can be hard finding the motivation to do anything. However, I did download Sony Vegas and Photoshop (and then Illustrator, because apparently that's what I should have actually been downloading). I've yet to install them as there is some pirate hokum to be done - it's like a magical spell involving frog spawn and turning off your internet so you can be a terrible person - so I'm going to leave that for a less sleepy day.

With me, there's always been the issue of trying to maintain a tidy workspace. At the moment my laptop and gaming computer are a clusterfuck of TV shows, memes and unused programs, and I think I really need to clean them out and keep them clean. It's all psychological: at the moment I check my laptop and the screen is all dim and the desktop background is dimmer and I just think "fuck that, I don't want to be productive". It's a flimsy excuse, vague at best, but I truly believe a tidy workspace is a tidy mind.

Came up with a few panels of comic, need to look into how to go about producing them. In terms of the webcomics, I think it'd probably be better if I build up a few weeks worth of releases so I'm not immediately piling pressure on myself. The date by which I want to have ten releases ready has been set to the first of April, so I have a month to try. If I only get one done then I'll be happy.

In other news I bought a compensator for my airsoft pistol. Compensator is the right word, it adds 4 inches onto the end of the barrel. It's like walking around as Judge Dredd. A poorly endowed Judge Dredd.

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So it's been a while...

Things are a bit strange at the moment. I think a year back I was much happier, but there's no point dwelling on the past.

I still have my aspirations, if anything they've grown into an octopus of "I will do [X]" but it's an octopus I plan to get into. Phrasing.

At some point I want to get really proactive, and by using the term "at some point" I think it's quite clear that day isn't today, or even this month. For now I'm just working through some things, trying to get back on my feet. I don't think I'll ever do half as much as I plan to, but when you make so many plans, you still get a lot done.

It's really hard to find the motivation to do anything, but then I look at myself and think you're nearly 24 and you haven't done anything since you hit 23. I think Nathan has a t-shirt that says "Fuck time before time fucks you". Pretty much sums it up.

So... plans. I want to make a gauntlet (don't ask) just to see if I can, and if I've learned anything since I got a job, it's that frivolous spending fits me like a glove... an armoured glove. Next month I'm moving in with a couple of friends. I'd always planned to move around this time, just in a slightly different way, and there's just something completely soul sucking about moving back into the room you grew up in. It's sort of like you never left. Home's great but I need my independence.

At some point - here come the big plans - I want to make a huge push into creative endeavors (try and find a more pompous term... you just can't do it) as at the moment I'm doing a part time job which pays relatively well (though not well enough to live on comfortably) and I get a lot of free time. Free time in which I don't do a whole lot.

Anyway, those "Creative... Endeavors". Might as well pull out the bullet points.

• Webcomic: one per week
• Youtube gaming vid: one per week
• Music cover: one, just fucking one
• WRITE A NOVEL... OR TWO... THIS YEAR.

There it is. In twenty-one words I have just set out a shitload of work. Like a lot. I learned from an old housemate that it's a lot easier to make pretty plans and more plans and have no substance to back them up, and it's not something I want to emulate.  So I'm taking baby steps, preparing myself for a complete lifestyle overhaul.

My plan for this week is to download Sony Vegas and Photoshop and start fiddling with them. Phrasing. That and clear my floordrobe. I'm worried it's becoming sentient.

Jordan

P.S. I love this song, it's beautiful.